Wow.... im finally back to my blog after yet another year of absence and neglect. Man, its been such a long time, it feels almost awkward and foreign to be doing this. To be honest, I sort of lost my interest in blogging as other things came to preoccupy my mind, and eventually it just faded away. I thought I would never blog again, that I would never have to express myself, that I could manage my thoughts and feelings.... but the fact that im back here again goes to show how dire my life situation is right now. So many things have happened and changed over the past few months, and just today, I finally realized that if I were to cope and survive with my life right now, I would need to express whatever feelings and thoughts that I have suppressed and kept hidden inside of me. So here goes....